someone give me a memory eraser please. i never knew you could cause so much pain. let me go. you've moved on. yet i've chosen to come back and reside where you left me. or rather, where i left you. out of all the rest. what we had was something real. perhaps thats why i refuse to forget.
a deluded attempt to carry on. a simple reminder somewhere. springs up, floods, overwhelms, torments. when will this cycle cease.
why am i feeling all this. maybe i'm human again.
you're a shadow after all.
well is it hard understanding i'm incomplete a life thats so demanding i get so weak and all their souls are burning i cant speak i know there's nothing i can say to change this.
perfection at 4:01 PM
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
Schizophrenic.
I count the seconds as they tick Waiting for that switch Waiting to switch minds
I held out as long as I could Shattering up there Crying down inside Somebody feel me
Schizophrenic Silent war Schizophrenic Unseen gore I'm losing it, I'm losing it Schizophrenic
Show me despair glimmer me hope Penetration weak Suffocating freak Where's a hand to reach
How much for living three lives How much for living three lies Delirium beckons Its left its scar Realize you've left me to die
Talk to me Kill the excess Gun them down one by one
perfection at 3:13 PM
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
why didnt i take arts. a little late to say that. oh wells.
elaborate my purpose please. unbearable fire and disgrace. why fight so hard for shadows. i know i'll never catch. what am i trying to prove. let it rest.
permutation and combination unfinished. oooh my death penalty awaits.
so throw on the black dress mix in with the lot you might wake up and notice you're someone you're not wipe off that makeup whats in is despair.
perfection at 5:00 PM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
being disinterested. doesnt give you the right to diss. your grasshopper stance. impending armageddon. tell me when you actually settle down. maybe then the sun will rise from the west.
elaborate your purpose please. unbearable fire and disgrace. why fight so hard for shadows. you know you'll never catch. what are you trying to prove. let it rest.
let me do something abstract. something insane. so out of this world or at least out of my box. i need some other form of expression. i know. sing everything out of tune.
i've told you time and time again you sing the words but dont know what it means i'm not okay i'm not okay i'm not okay you wear me out.
perfection at 2:46 PM
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
miracles miracles miracles. plus social fulfilment. anything else to top that? his incessant dialogues and felicitations. awww.
do not base your faith on experience. solidify it by reading the Word.
or so you say. a no-lifer. then again. does it pay to have so much "life". lets see how it'll feed you.
baby, you're indescribable. i'm falling for you all over again.
but thunder gathers round the mountain a storm is half a world away if i could choose, believe me i would stay its so good, you fall again.
perfection at 2:11 PM
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
doesnt anyone else suffer the same. addiction to productivity. not a crime. yet people shun the effort involved. call it anything you want. i'm hooked.
all high hopes. possibly went into deep slumber. uncertain of its awakening.
resolve circumstance. sometimes it acts as friction. always opposing the progressive motion. a hindrance. an unchangeable fact.
yesterday seemed better. it always is. you know, you remember, you miss.
let me pick a fight. i wanna be in chaos.
what have we done with innocence it disappeared with time and never made much sense adolescent resident wasting another night on planning my revenge.
perfection at 3:49 PM
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Wine Glass.
Invisible games she'll play So cunningly leads astray Grinning from top to top Sturdy Until she drops
The brilliant master of light Dashes like stars of the night Beauty in unreality Facades Pure fantasy
What a flawless distorter Elegance, mystique, grandeur Blurred dishonest reflections Disguise Curved deceptions
So powerful She is but a commodity.
damn weird right. fine i was bored. was sitting at a table at my restaurant waiting for customers okay. i think my lady boss and the chef think i'm insane. staring and fiddling with the wine glass like that. oh wells.
so much for passing on the art of detachment. what kinda master doesnt practice what he preaches. i guess its easier said than done. i just dont wanna turn cold again.
we only stand when its safe to fall we love stupidity it doesnt hurt as much its worse to feel than be out of touch.
perfection at 2:57 PM
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
treasure. a verb and a noun. never saw what i had. didnt know the significance. regret. not because failed to see. but because i failed to acknowledge. you made me learn something. treasure treasure.
cause i needed. i need to hear you say. that i forgive you. for being far away for far too long.
now that we are older. i remember youth. now that we are close to death. and close to finding truth.
i feel them coming again. cloud white, runner heavy. will not be taken down so easily.
all i wanna do is make sure i stop chasing rainbows.
letting everybody crawl inside your heart and mind all i wanna do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows.
perfection at 6:49 PM
theJOURNEY.
theTUNES.
what sing you.
theMUSICIAN.
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